Which door...your choice / June 30, 2025

which door

…

your choice.

Hey there…

Doors.
We open them, close them, walk through them or sometimes turn away. They can be gateways, portals, or even quiet escapes. Some we approach with ease, others require all our strength just to budge. There are doors that spin in circles, always in motion, and others that offer a glimpse of what’s waiting on the other side. So many types. So many purposes.

Years ago, while visiting Asheville, North Carolina, with my family, I stumbled upon the most charming little doors tucked into corners of the city—fairy doors.  I’d never seen or heard of them before, but I was instantly captivated. Something about them sparked my imagination—tiny invitations to wonder, to dream, to play. I remember hoping that our time together on that trip would be peaceful, free of tension and drama…I wanted to swing the door of fun and joy wide open.  So, I just stepped back, allowed and released my grip on expectations.  There was a little drama of course but that was part of the fun.  We still love each other!

Pulling this card today felt right—especially since it’s been a while since I’ve shared in this space. I never fully closed the door on being here… I just made it heavy to open. So heavy that it became hard for creativity to move through. And the truth is, I was the one who made it that way. No one else—just me.

It’s a pattern I’ve noticed in myself with creativity. And while that realization could bring frustration, today it feels more like awareness—and I’m here for that.

I’ve been sitting with the question: Why am I making writing and self-expression feel so heavy, so hard? I even started spiraling into the old rabbit hole—Maybe I’m not confident enough. Maybe I don’t trust what I have to say. Maybe this, maybe that...

All valid pieces worth exploring, sure. But today, a different voice showed up. One that said, “Not today.”

Today, I realized I’ve spent so much time trying to fix or analyze that part of myself that I’ve squeezed out the fun. The play. The joy that creativity brings. It’s been knocking all this time—and I’ve been too weighed down to answer.

So today, I chose to open the door to ease and flow—to let the words come without overthinking or editing. I tend to be a bit meticulous with my words (maybe even a little neurotic at times), and while that part of me has its gifts, I’m learning to hold it more lightly. To honor it, yes—but also to allow more spaciousness, more trust. Today felt like a good day to just let it be easy.

I’m digging this door of ease and flow.  Let’s see how long I can keep it open – allowing it to flow into other parts of my life.  I am sure another gust of wind or tornado will come by and the door will shut again.  But for now, it’s open, and that feels good.

Another piece that I am digging is how this card resonates today verses years ago when I created it.  Different time, different door or maybe it’s the same door appearing in a different way.  Hmmm…something else to ponder on another day. 

If you feel called, take a moment to get still. Close your eyes and let yourself land. Then, simply sit with the image and the words “which door… your choice.” No need to overthink. Allow whatever wants to rise up gently float to the surface.

May we be easy with ourselves – allowing the love to flow.

Thank you for being here with me.

I love you.

Susi